Thursday, January 20, 2022

Tuesday, January 18, 2022

Space



By Patwant Rhodes



Deep meaningful healing can occur when we create space, external and internal space. If there is too much noise, clutter, activity and we fill our schedules up to the brim, to the last hour and minute of the day without allowing breathing space and time for integration of all the effects of what we have consciously worked with, how can anything truly shift, truly heal, truly transform, actually the opposite happens and we restrict ourselves, trapping ourselves in high alert states with our nervous systems and glands on guard, our bodies and beings in a locked, held state just keeping it together like we`ve always done. You may have experienced getting sick when you finally take leave, as you finally have permission to let go, process, eliminate and deeply rest.


 If we push ourselves at the expense of what we actually require we bit by bit day by day year by year drain our vital life force energy, even if we have the best intentions and are eating correctly, exercising, stretching, meditating, breathing correctly and sleeping well. 


The rhythms of our bodies change. Our needs change like seasons change, sometimes we are more energetic, other times less so and we need to be flexible and learn to tune in and listen to the subtleties of what our bodies require and adapt our practices and rhythms to honour that with enough breathing spaces to process and integrate all of the myriad of interactions and experiences that we have. 


Western culture is addicted to doing, instant results, predictable outcomes and quick fixes. Healing does not happen that way.  Healing takes its own time, is a journey of discovery and recovery and often requires delving deep and unlocking that which we have been holding, it can expose our deepest vulnerabilities, fears and patterns that all require time and space to be digested. When committed to a healing path you will realise healing is a process of peeling away very fine layers. Mind, body and soul are intricately connected and all constantly reflect each other, our bodies are truly our temples. How do we intimately relate to the temple we inhabit? How does this temple speak to you, whisper to you, support you? There is always something more to be revealed, to be released, to be processed, to be healed.  There is always something to learn and unlearn. Learning to be gentle with ourselves is a often challenging, being hard on ourselves is often our default mode. Observe where you can be kinder to yourself, more forgiving. 


Healing is a different and unique process for everyone. We are each unique beings physically, mentally, emotionally, energetically and spiritually. There can be no one way for everyone, no one formula that can be imposed. 


Our bodies, soul journeys, life journeys and experiences are unique. The lessons we came here to learn are different. What works for one of us does not necessarily work for the other.


May we remember to breathe an expansive state of spaciousness into and between all that we practice and allow our bodies, minds and souls space and time to truly heal thoroughly and deeply. May we listen to the wisdom of our bodies and souls. May we be gentle with ourselves and others as we all navigate our unique journeys. May we create the breathing room we require in order to allow space for ourselves to flourish and grow into our fullest potential. 







Tuesday, December 4, 2018

Initiation Stations Direct



M I S S I O N    2 0 1 9



Initiation Stations Direct

Life masterfully drops us into a witches brew
The eye of yet another storm
I smelt it in the wind
as it whistled and whispered secrets

We know how to tread water
Float
Swim in more than just circles
Untouched
by the contents of
caustic
cauldrons
even as coals were consistently stoked 
Violet flames invoked
We dip and dive below the surface
Fly and sing
as we speed through seasons
multiple universes
eclipses
retrogrades
alignments
that birth
galaxies
dying stars
pulsating portals
new moons
and solstices
We traverse and transcend
inner and outer worlds
that unrelentingly refine us
into
a
healing
elixir
an
essence
a
remedy
an
avatar
a
nothing
an
everything
ash
mud
stardust

We are reminded how to move quickly

Foxtrot
Ramba
Green mambas on the move
rattling through cages
We
shed
skins
while
we cook
dress
drive
and
dance

We meet walls
and climb them before breakfast
We cross rivers
Swim seas
Drown in stagnant puddles
and die multiple deaths
in traffic jams
deserts
trenches
shopping malls
mountain tops
museums
and banks

We bake naked in the sun
in
s w o l l e n
s
i
l
e
n
c
e

We learn how to let life breathe us in new ways

In a million aftermaths
In the shade
Under trees
In forests
Under waterfalls
On highways
In high rises

We learn how to let life breathe us in new ways

There is another hill to climb
or is it a mountain?
a plateau?
a black hole?

Something

I smell the wind changing again
I
see
 a
smile
that knows how to laugh
has been humbled
can be silent

Hope   b r e a t h e s   through me

The doors for the keys I am holding
do not not exist. Yet.

Patience learns to become me
I
become
patience.



Thursday, January 25, 2018

Water Invocation




I am a water bearer
submerged in my element
Cool oceans cascade and ripple through my veins
and seep out through my pores
saturating 
my
parched
cracked
dusty
earth

I am a full blown and alive body of liquid
Swollen 
with
rip tides
undercurrents
whirlpools
waterfalls
and
tidal waves

am 
moist
 with 
the 
memory 
of 
monsoon 
downpours
and
misty
mountain
dew

Somewhere
howling
wind
drives
sheets
of
pelting
rain
onto
skin and rooftops

I love the vast sound of your grace

Your tributaries
that 
traverse
ancient pathways
split 
into
immense
webs
of
pure
life force
that
trickle
gush
ramble
spout
and
plummet
deep into my pools

You
 drench
 me
 in
 the
 sweetest
nectar.



Friday, December 1, 2017

Wake Up!



December 1. Aids Remembrance Day. I remember my daughters father who died of Aids. I remember the journey, the isolation, the fear, the strength, the stretching beyond what I knew possible and the new territory I found myself in on a daily basis. I can never forget the quiet, profound, powerfully indescribable miracles. The immense vulnerability, the unknown, the endless void. The awakening.

This little poem I wrote in 2003. There were horrendous fear based myths being whispered in shadows and dark corners. Little girls were being violated. People were being ostracised, attacked, murdered. Fear was running wild.

I say little poem because it only captures the very tip of a colossal iceberg. It is a performance poem and works better performed and not read. I got to perform it at the opening of woman's parliament in Cape Town with a poetry and performance collective I was part of, I can't remember the year.
Amakwirikwiri is a derogatory term used here that refers to foreigners from our neighbouring African countries.

Wake Up!

This is not
a black
white
gay
amakwirikwiri
lesbian
disease

This is not
an uneducated
misinformed
poor
rural
young prostitute
because you did it on your knees disease

WAKE UP!

There is no cure through violating and raping
the pure
the virgin
the little girl next door
A big man like you
what the hell were you thinking
we'd love to think you feel
and know
more

WAKE UP!

Yes of course you can work with
love
and hug
care for
and help
use the same mug
eat from the same plate
without dooming your fate

WAKE UP!

Stop pretending it's not there
get tested
tell the lovers you've had
whoevers been under
on
in your bed
this is the moment now
to get it in your head

WAKE UP!

What about the infected babies
the children
their silent voices
silent pain
Just because we don't see them
does not mean they do not have a name

WAKE UP!

This is our disease
From Knysna to Nepal
Cape Flats to Cairo
Durban to Dubai

From the boring to the bizaar
it's got us all covered
it affects us all

Look in the mirror
Face the facts
The seeds of change begin with that face staring back

It's urgent
it's dire
It's desperate
Take stock

You are the only one
who can make the choice
to
wake
up.


2003







Thursday, November 2, 2017

Oh Woman! R i s e


Oh woman

Call yourself back

From your isolation
from stagnant trenches
arrid deserts
hollow caves
and claustrophobic shadow lands
that
speak
behind
rustling
leaves
and
backs

Sing the soulful sinew back onto your bones

Drum
and
stamp
the
tattered
scattered
pieces of yourself
back together
Those parts
that were politely ripped from your hands
and heart
while you smiled
 and 
e n d l e s s l y
poured
out
more
than
you
had
to
give

Start

Even if in silence
rocking alone
in the dark

Start

Even if in whispers 
Or crawling

It is time to inhabit
the luminosity of your skin
This vast wise container that is you

They will never know who you are
if you do not stand firmly
in these thighs
breasts
and feet
that speak stirring stories
that rattle
tightly bound
one track
minds
and suffocated hearts

If you do not
they will force feed you with lies
spin
you
in
circles
fill you
with a million stories that are not yours
attempt to shatter your vast spaces
that know not of confinement
and only know
the wisdom every cell in your body speaks
every nuance
pulsation
vibration
ripple
pulse
and twitch

They will tell you you are crazy
That you imagine the mystery of your heart
They will interrogate you
demand answers
why's and how's

as you lie tied to their crosses

You hear yourself echoing
 answers
explanations
apologies
in their dark airless torture chambers
while the landscape of your heart
you have walked
track by track
barefoot
blindfolded
naked
in the dark
over
and
over
again

warns you

not
to
betray
it's
timeless
wisdom
that
surpasses
all words
and
bounds

Oh woman

Divine feminine beauty in all your shapes and forms

It is time to R
                         I
                            S
                                E

You need to call yourself back
into the centre of your skin
You need to inhabit this profound territory
shine through the thick tangible veils
in the absolute
T R U T H
of who you are
and what you know without words.

There will be no further annhilation on these grounds.
No
further.


2 October 2017



Monday, January 16, 2017

L o v e Is E v e r y t h i n g
















l o v e   i s   e v e r y t h i n g:



Love is everything can be a well intentioned, beautifully, intricately woven, safe, protective cloak. Equalizing, neutralizing, sanitizing everything and everyone in a gentle, kind, pinkish green, tinged in gold, purple haze. Watering down loves most exquisitely pure elixir into a sprinkle, a spray, a breeze.


Wearing this love is everything cloak you circle the sacred fire. You feel the heat of the flames.  You feel the warmth, glow and sparks and spread a logical love with both feet on the ground from a safe, sweet and kind distance, with a twinkle in your eyes, a smile on your lips and the gentle light of love in your heart.


 With this love is everything cloak you do not risk stepping into a sacred groundless fire to succumb to the purifying burn of loves purest nectar.  You do not risk standing in the blaze of this scorching volcanic pool.  In this sacred fire you are willingly naked, vulnerable, exposed.  In this fire you cannot avoid seeing yourself in the mirror of the other.  The mirror of your soul.  In this fire you stand in the presence of your wounds, your shadow, your power, your weakness, your demons.


 In this fire we pulse, crack, rock, sweat, twist, strip and burn into bliss.  Truly burn into bliss.  We are humbled, kneaded, wholed, transformed.


 The heat of this fire is not for everyone.


 In these flames we live in complete fullness, complete truth.  Stepping into this fire you risk being fully seen, fully and unimaginably deeply loved, every crevice, canyon and black hole of you.


When and if you are ever ready to leave your cloaks, clothes, skin and swords at the temple door and kneel, only then is love truly and purely everything. It is then that you allow this fire of love to initiate you.


Love is you, you are love. 


This intimate, conscious love with another is the eye of a needle that is a doorway into the unseen, unknown realms, a threshold into a pulsating infinite cosmic force.  Yes, then love is everything.


This pure and potent love from the sacred fire pit is what heals.  This love is the love that heals you, your neighbour, your friends, your enemies, strangers, humanity, the world, all the planets and the entire universe and beyond. Once you have stepped into this sacred fire, love is everything becomes a sword of blazing blue truth.  This love burns with a purity from deep within and ignites trillions of fires, one star, one atom, one cell, one universe at a time; to create this one pulse, this one breath, that is your breath, that is mine.


The risk of allowing another to deeply, soulfully and purely matter to us allows us to live and vibrate love is everything in its purest most potent form.  From out of these burnt ashes all and everything is possible, something exquisitely new can emerge.


If you are not ready for these flames do keep your beautifully woven cloak on and continue circling the sacred fire, spreading your version of love with both feet firmly on the ground.



13 Feb 2016